Yeah, yeah, I know...it's been awhile since I have written anything. A lot has been going on but through it all I have conquered one of my greatest fears and can now see better than I EVER have in my life!!! And no, I don't just mean metaphorically.....I faced my fears and had laser eye surgery! I've had glasses since the 3rd grade and basically from what I can remember...I have seen every thing through two lenses. Once those glasses were off, life was blurry and a little scary, so my glasses became my eyes. I highly depended on them because without them I was blind. And because of this, I couldn't fully experience life. This may sound overly dramatic, but it is the truth. Simple things like swimming, riding rollercoasters and taking a shower were not the same for me. When you can't fully see you lose the chance to really relax and enjoy the moment. I remember I used to LOVE swimming, but as I got older and my vision worsened, it just wasn't fun anymore. Same with rollercoasters. I went on my first rollercoaster ride when I was in elementary school and I went all by myself! I loved the thrill and was so proud of myself. But after that moment, all I remember is not enjoying rollercoasters as much anymore. I either had to ride them without my glasses and couldn't see OR I had to hold onto my glasses as I rode and pray they wouldn't fall off or break. So as you can see...either way was not so much fun. My biggest fear as a child was going blind because I assumed that I would as my vision got worse, I was always apprehensive about going to the eye doctor or dealing with my eye health-and that fear and nervousness carried on through my adult hood. Even though I knew as an adult I wouldn't go blind just because my vision got worse, that dark cloud of fear from my childhood still hovered over me. I remember one day when I was 13 years old, I literally ate a bowl of carrots hoping it would help my vision improve.
So to make a long story short, after LOTS of thorough research, contemplation, prayers and professional diagnosis....I DID IT!!!! I faced my fears head on and put my eyes and hope in God's hands....and now, I can see better than I EVER have without glasses and it's getting better and better. With the type of surgery I had, my recovery is slow and I have to be patient because my vision is slowly improving. But at least I can SEE with MY eyes..not through two lenses! I can take a shower and SEE my body....I can wake up and SEE my beautiful daughter's face across the room...I can read the clock in the morning....I can function WITHOUT my glasses and now I can't wait to experience all those moments I missed out on!!!! I can't wait to go swimming with my daughter and see how excited she gets...I can't wait to get to snorkel one day in Hawaii...ride a rollercoaster without any fears...LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST BECAUSE I SEE IT ALL!!!!!!
I thank my husband for being there for me through this rough journey, because the decision didn't come easily. I thank my family for supporting me through it all, the wonderful Dr. Reed who calmly took me from a nervous candidate to a blessed success story and most importantly thank God for his love and help! But of course I can't forget one more person...I thank MYSELF for facing my fears and opening my eyes to a new world!!!!
Oh and one more thing...I wrote this whole thing WITHOUT my glasses!!!!! BOOOOYYYAAHHHH!!!! :)~
